Testify to Love

Hmm,,mimpi..
Pernah ga sih ditanyain tentang mimpi? Hmm, kalo ditanya tentang mimpi, gw ga bisa jawab. Mungkin gw cm bakal ngeles, "mimpi cuma buat orang yg slalu tidur..dan gw disini lagi berjuang buat hidup. Haha"
Ga tau deh..gw ini sebenernya tipe yg agak perfeksionis. Gw suka something yg sempurna, yg emang harusnya gitu. Dulu, waktu kecil gw pengen slesein skolah gw sampe degree and that's it, kerja (jadi animator), berkarya, ketemu jodoh, merit, bangun usaha, jadi bos, punya anak, yah happy ending lah pokoknya. Simple! Haha dan gw sadar, perfeksionis gw terlalu sosial. Ga selalu perfek itu ngikutin aturan biar dimata orang bagus. Hidup, hidup gw. Mau gw bikin perfek aja ala gw. Haha!
Kalo skarang, gw ikutin hidup ajalah, kemana berlabuhnya. Toh semua ada yang ngatur, mau belok kanan tapi jalanya lurus ya ga bisa! Haha kayaknya gw butuh mimpi baru nih, or lebih tepatnya gol baru. Feel like keeping something that's not mine. Skarang gw sedang enjoy2nya ga skolah, uda kerja, tapi bukan hasil usaha sendiri, jadi blom ngerasain susahnya nyari duit, punya duit tapi ga punya mimpi mo diapain. Hahaha perfek aja! Gw enjoyyy....

"Expect nothing, live frugally on surprises!"

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It was 14.59 -
I was playing with stuff in my gadget. For once in a life time. Accidentally. I found, "at the end of the day, it is u, still u, who made up my day."

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While sitting in front of a therapy room, my mind flies away.
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Just realized. Have u ever heard this phrase:
"more than coquerors" - an interpretation from Rome 8: 37.

Why then it said that we are more than a conquerors?
Let me give u a short illustration:
Let say, there is a man, he has a wife and he is a boxer. So his job is boxing. He produces money with boxing. Someday he is about to join a championship prized some amount of big money. He starts to train hard to win that game. He is really made effort of it.
Till the day's coming, he is now standing on a stage ready to conquer every single rivals. Finally he is worth his hardwork. He won the game and got the money. He is a conqueror.
He went back and bringing the money home. After home, he showed the money to his wife and she took it. He just do nothing. So, it means, his wife is more than a conqueror!

So, don't we similar like that? We have Jesus as a conqueror. He was conquered all for us, so WE ARE MORE THAN A CONQUEROR! Haha. Honestly, I just realized it and I'm happy I got my own revelation. Hehe :)

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After a very long time, I finally met him. My very best friend since my secondary. Haha. What a relief talking with him about lot of things. Many things!
Though it was only about 2 hours we met, but I was really enjoying it cos I could be myself, honestly. Sometimes we keep a secret from some people to keep a better situation, while sometimes for some people u just dont.
Yeah I thank God, He gave me such a good friend for me and thanked be to God again I could be such a good friend for him :)
Chris, I'll see u soon! Have a good flight :D

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Right! Lately I just realized and believed some common things, which only I heard but never I see, such as:

- dog, its food is seriously BONE! Any bones! ;D

- this is not a perfect world, neither the man inside

- this world is getting more and more evil. It comes to worst everyday

- man couldn't live alone, that's why we need friend from the beggining we had created (err..I guess I knew it from the very long time)

- man are complex

- I know why there are people who want to suicide themself

- optimist, focus on opportunities in every situation
Pesimistist, focus on problems in every situation

- man are not forever young ;p

- I admit since I was in sg, I became a lil bit impatient; habit creates a character

- when u feel so nothing u've to open up ur eyes widely and see the world around u and it'll makes u grateful for what u are :)

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Well..I found that lately my writting was too heavy to read. Feel like whining all the time, so boring. Hmm, it's supposed to be a testimony loving God and people and not myself alone I think :)
Yeah, at the moment, I was feeling and thinking negatively. Now, time to reset my mind, live life positively, full of gratitudes! It could avoid cancer by the way (source: Rev. Gilbert L). Haha.
Hmm, if at SG I could find a lot of happiness in my limitation, why I coudn't get it here with all the facilities?or anywhere I go? It's all only about choice-making :)
God, help me to keep positive no matter what! It wouldn't be easy without You.

"When my soul fainted within me I remembered the LORD: and my prayer came in unto thee, into thine holy temple. They that observe lying vanities forsake their own mercy. But I will sacrifice unto thee with the voice of thanksgiving; I will pay that that I have vowed. Salvation is of the LORD." (Jonah 2:7-9)

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