Hidup untuk Mati
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| di 3:08 PM
Seringkali aku berkata,
Ketika semua orang memuji, milikku
Bahwa sesungguhnya ini hanyalah titipan
Bahwa mobilku hanyalah titipan-Nya
Bahwa rumahku hanyalah titipan-Nya
Bahwa hartaku hanyalah titipan-Nya
Bahwa putraku hanyalah titipan-Nya
Tetapi, mengapa aku tak pernah bertanya:
Mengapa Dia menitipkan padaku ?
Untuk apa Dia menitipkan ini padaku ?
Dan kalau bukan milikku, apa yang harus kulakukan untuk milik-Nya itu ?
Adakah aku memiliki hak atas sesuatu yang bukan milikku ?
Mengapa hatiku justru terasa berat, ketika titipan itu diminta kembali oleh-Nya ?
Ketika diminta kembali, kusebut itu sebagai musibah
Kusebut itu sebagai ujian, kusebut itu sebagai petaka
Kusebut itu sebagai panggilan apa saja untuk melukiskan kalau itu adalah derita
Ketika aku berdoa, kuminta titipan yang cocok dengan hawa nafsuku
Aku ingin lebih banyak harta,
ingin lebih banyak mobil,
lebih banyak popularitas, dan
kutolak sakit,
kutolak kemiskinan,
seolah semua "derita" adalah hukuman bagiku
Seolah keadilan dan kasih-Nya harus berjalan seperti matematika:
Aku rajin beribadah, maka selayaknyalah derita menjauh dariku, dan nikmat dunia kerap menghampiriku.
Kuperlakukan Dia seolah mitra dagang, dan bukan kekasih
Kuminta Dia membalas "perlakuan baikku",
Dan menolak keputusan-Nya yang tak sesuai keinginanku
Gusti,
Padahal tiap hari kuucapkan, hidup dan matiku hanya untuk beribadah.
Ketika langit dan bumi bersatu, bencana dan keberuntungan sama saja
Ws Rendra
| di 2:57 PM
Tuhan,mengapa wanita begitu mudah menangis?
Tuhan berkata:
Ketika AKU menciptakan seorang wanita, ia diharuskan untuk mjdi seorang yang istimewa.
AKU membuat bahunya cukup kuat utk menopang dunia, namun harus cukup lembut untuk memberikan kenyamanan.
AKU memberikan kekuatan dari dalam untuk mampu melahirkan anak dan menerima penolakan yang sering datang dari anak-anaknya.
AKU memberi kekerasan untuk membuatnya tetap tegar saat orang lain menyerah, dan mengasuh keluarganya dgn penderitaan+kelelahan tanpa mengeluh.
AKU memberi kepekaan untuk mencintai anak-anaknya dalam tiap keadaan, bahkan ketika anaknya bersikap sangat menyakiti hatinya.
AKU memberinya kekuatan utk mendukung suaminya dalam kegagalannya dan melengkapi dengan tulang rusuk suaminya untuk melindungi hatinya.
AKU memberi kebijaksanaan untuk
mengetahui bahwa suami yang baik takkan pernah menyakiti istrinya, tapi kadang menguji kekuatan dan ketetapan hatinya untuk berada di sisi suaminya tanpa ragu.
Akhirnya,
AKU memberinya air mata untuk diteteskan. Ini adalah khusus miliknya untuk digunakan kapan pun ia butuhkan.
Kau tahu, kecantikan seorang wanita bukanlah dari pakaian yang dikenakannya, sosok yang ia tampilkan atau bagaimana ia menyisir rambutnya.
Kecantikan seorang wanita harus dilihat dari matanya,karena itulah pintu hatinya tempat dimana cinta itu ada.
| di 11:27 PM
Hi..tonight is October 8th, 22:59.
60mins+1 away from twenties..I'm now widely awaken, waiting for..or maybe looking for a feeling of difference.
Is there any certain significant feeling when turning teen age to (let's say) a mature age?
One thing for sure, I am grateful for everything. Every bitterness and every laughter, they are all strengthen me and help me to grow up.I thank God, for I have a great God like Jesus Christ, who always give me the best.
My family; mama, papa, christo and monic, no matter how imperfect its form, but they are the best in my life.
My friends, they are thousands out there and I thank God. Wherever I go, God provides me such a lovely friends as a companionship, singapore and here, I love them and I miss them.
and then to a very special one, my beloved ryan, who faithfully support me in everything I do, love me unconditionally. He is the greatest gift God ever gifted to me in my life.
Label: Assignment | di 10:42 PM
well..this is the second assignment: post a video to your blog about IBA activity!
So..tadaaaa!! this is my class :D
I took this video when actually there must have a class activity but the lecturer didn't show up, so..as u can see, a very quick recorded taken by WINDA my friend (thanks anyway!), we are so free. Welcome to Indonesia! LOL
Jilly Gabriella E
IA - 100613009
Label: Assignment | di 1:13 PM
Jilly Gabriella Eman/IA - 100613009
Been so busy lately and have no time to write. My last post recorded on July while now last day on September. Too much things to write too little energy.
In fact I got so much things in my mind to share.
I started my new college here (Manado, red), since I came back to my hometown last year, and now studying international business administration in UNSRAT (Universitas Sam Ratulangi) Manado.
This is actually one of my assignment: make a blog and post something about IBA life. Thats why on the very top one I wrote my identity.
Well..let's start.
College, for me, is a place where you can find bunch of friends there, but the real school actually is not collage itself but life. Be a part of IBA is a pleasure. I've got plenty friends and knowledge that I've never got before.
IBA has a loooooot of events, such as IBA Night, IBA weekend, IBA expo, etc. I never imagine how do they manage it. But it simply proofs that they are able to afford it. Unfortunately I cant join every single event, cause I live in Tomohon and to be effective I must eliminate activities which is not really useful for me to involved. Beside, studying while working is not that easy.
The curriculum is not much different with NAFA (my college before, red). It has certain amount of credits that have to be fulfilled by the end of the semester. The earliest class starts from 7 o'clock in the morning up to 1 o'clock in the afternoon and even 3 o'clock in the evening.
IBA freshie class divided to 4 classes; IA, IB, IC, and ID. Actually there's nothing differenced it, just a way to divide student into classes.
The rest collage stuff, I think, is totally the same with any other collage and faculty we generally known. My goal is, study hard and graduate as soon as possible.
Thanks for reading and stay touched! :)
| di 3:57 PM
H-6 the pressure is stronger.
There is always moment when I get intimidated and suddenly the fear come through my body mind and heart. Shivering. Panic. Afraid. Frightened. Discourage. Worry. Etc.
It means that I gotta fasten the prayer.
2 Cor 4
We’ve been surrounded and battered by troubles, but we’re not demoralized; we’re not sure what to do, but we know that God knows what to do; we’ve been spiritually terrorized, but God hasn’t left our side; we’ve been thrown down, but we haven’t broken.
These hard times are small potatoes compared to the coming good times,..
... not a day goes by without his unfolding grace.
Joel Osteen once said,
The key of success is not to be discouraged, while you're in the process..
Yes. I believe that the favor of God can bring us out of difficulties and turn adversities around for good.
| di 9:42 AM
"Seorang kekasih, ingat setiap pengorbanan yg dia lakukan untukmu, tapi kekasih sejati ingat setiap pengorbanan yg kamu lakukan untuknya."
| di 8:47 AM
This is the song I'm currently listening.
Many nights we've prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we knew we could
There can be miracles, when you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe
In this time of fear
When prayers so often prove(s) in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
Yet now I'm standing here
My heart's so full I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say
There can be miracles, when you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe
They don't (always happen) when you ask
(Oh)
And it's easy to give in to your fears
(Oh...Ohhhh)
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see your way straight throught the rain
(A small but )still resilient voice
Says (hope is very near)
(Ohhh)
There can be miracles
(Miracles)
When you believe
(Lord, when you believe)
Though hope is frail
(Though hope is frail)
It's hard to kill
(Hard to kill, Ohhh)
Who knows what miracles,you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will(somehow,somehow, somehow)
somehow you will
You will when you believe
You will when you
You will when you believe
Just believe...in your heart
Just believe
You will when you believe
| di 6:51 PM
Intermezzo dulu ya fellas,
I received this broadcast and found it interesting.
Karakter menurut bulan lahir, ya ga ilmiah sih tapi lumayan kena (for me personally).
Hehe try it!
;) JANUARI
* Mudah menyintai
* Mudah melupakan saat dikhianati * Pandai mengoda
* Romantis tetapi kaku
* Mudah cemburu
* Mudah bergaul & pemalu
;) FEBRUARI
* Sukar jatuh cinta
* Menghargai pasangan
* Jujur & transparan
* Nekad
* Sangat romantis
* Modis
;) MARET
* Mudah menarik simpati lawan jenis
* Tidak mandiri
* Pemalu
* Mudah cemburu
* Manja
* Mudah menyintai
* Penuntut
:) APRIL
* Sulit jatuh cinta
* Tidak berani berterus terang
* Pemalu
* Butuh perhatian
* Pencemburu
* Setia
* Mudah emosi
* Ngak romantis
* Sukar melupakan pasangan walaupun dikhianati
;;) MEI
* Mudah jatuh cinta
* Baik & jujur
* Romantis
* Suka mengatur
* Suka berkhayal
:) JUNI
* Tidak bisa menyenangkan pasangan
* Mudah menyintai tetapi terlalu memilih
* Cerewet
* Mudah emosi
* Mudah ngambek
* Pelindung sejati
* Gila pujian
;) JULI
* Pandai menjaga diri
* Suka didampingi
* Sukar dimengerti
* Suka & senang berterus terang
* Mudah terluka & lama pulih
* Mudah ngambek
* Setia
* Pendengar yang baik
* Mudah cemburu
* Suka menilai & menjaga hubungan
:) AGUSTUS
* Suka memimpin
* Romantis
* Penuh kasih sayang & penyayang
* Sangat sensitif
* Mudah curhat
;) SEPTEMBER
* Sopan
* Suka mengkritik
* Sangat sensitif & emosi
* Pandai memahami
* Kurang menunjukan perasaannya terhadap pasangan
* Sukar melupakan jika hatinya terluka
* Pandai menyimpan perasaan
* Suka berterus terang
;;) OKTOBER
* Pandai berkomunikasi
* Suka disayang & menyayangi
* Sopan
* Jujur & jarang berpura ~ pura
* Mudah emosi
* Pencemburu
* Romantis
* Memahami pasangan
;) NOVEMBER
* Cermat & teliti
* Suka berahasia dengan siapapun
* Kuat berpendirian
* Pendendam
* Mudah emosi
* Moody
;) DESEMBER
* Mudah menyintai
* Selalu tergesa ~ gesa
* Tidak mandiri
* Menyintai kebebasan
* Pandai mempengaruhi
How is it? :)
| di 3:10 PM
Many times, people pray when they got in trouble time.
That what's happening today, hmm..kind of.
I wrote these, maybe could be a bit random or hard to you to understand. These part of my thoughts that I can't effort anymore. The fear in me come out, though I spoke lot of words of God that say "Don't be afraid", just..lemme pour out everything here.
| di 7:39 PM
Surat dari PENJUAL RUJAK yg PATAH HATI:
Wajahmu mmg MANGGIS, watakmu juga MELONkolis, tapi hatiku NANAS krn cemburu, SIRSAK napasku, hatiku ANGGUR lebur.Ini DELIMA dlm hidupku, mmg SALAKku, jarang APEL malam minggu.Ya Tuhan, mohon BELIMBINGANmu, kalo mmg perPISANGan ini baik utkku, SEMANGKA kau bahagia dg yg lain
TTD: SAWOnara.
Surat balasan dari pacarnya yg ternyata tukang sayur...
Membalas KENTANG suratmu itu, BROKOLI sudah kubilang, jangan tiap dateng rambutmu selalu KUCAI, JAGUNGmu gak pernah dicukur. Disuruh dateng malem minggu, ehh nongolnya LABU. ditambah kondisi keuanganmu makin hari makin PARE, kalo mo nelpon aja mesti ke WORTEL...CABE dehhhhh
| di 4:40 PM
Ma, I miss you.
I miss your smile
I miss your voice
I miss your advice
I miss your phone
I miss you text me
I miss the time u check on me
I miss when u got mad to me
I miss when u look at me in the eyes and then kiss me good night
I miss u to take care of me
Buy me some presents
Bring me to haircut
Take me to the dentist, sometime forcing
I miss those bright and dark moments with you
Ma, I hope u understand how I miss you to be my super mom again
I don't say these to show that now you are nothing anymore for me, but..
I just try to show you how significant your presence to me.
I feel like sometimes, no..but many times, I can't stand these any longer without you, I really need you.
Ma, please get better. Have more spirit, I know u can!
My pray always be with you, every single day, get closer to a hundred percent health.
Ma, it doesn't mean that I think u r weak now, nooo..believe me u r even stronger now.
And I'm grateful for you is my mom like others could never be.
I love you.
Present, or even past I love you no less.
I love you just the way you are.
Yes..I love you so.
| di 12:57 PM
Suddenly today, I coincidently think some quotes:
| di 4:44 PM
This was a story weeks ago. I found this funny for my self.
I lost my wallet on 3rd of May, while watching "hardiknas" de vile of Tomohon (u'll get it if u leave here).
I admit that day I was so terribly panic, I know I was wrong, and dad's gonna be so mad at me. I lost his cards and mom's in my wallet, which that day he needs it urgently. That's why, I felt really bad.
The night I pray, I gave it back to God, that wallet is no longer mine but God. I blessed the people who steal it and I let it go (in fact I love my red wallet so) and try to never expect it anymore.
After a week, somebody found it. WOW. I laugh to my self, because the day it lost, a friend told me (it's his experience) to pray for that man and the wallet so it'll come back to me and I just said "don't need to pray for it to returned anymore, I've let it go." And in my heart I know it'll will never ever returned. Once a thing lost (especially wallet), it will forever not found, that's what I know. Beside, I can buy a new one. I thought so. But when it's found, I hardly believe it, it's like BOOM! God was trying to say that "heyy..through Me nothing is impossible" haha how funny! Can I say that a testimony? :)
maybe this post sounds simple but if u just were me, u'll know how great it was work hehe :)
| di 11:04 AM
Saat bertemu dgn orang yg benar-benar engkau kasihi, haruslah berusaha memperoleh kesempatan untuk bersamanya seumur hidupmu. Karena ketika dia telah pergi, segalanya telah terlambat.
Saat bertemu teman yang dapat dipercaya, rukunlah bersamanya. Karena seumur hidup manusia, teman sejati tak mudah ditemukan.
Saat bertemu penolongmu, Ingat untuk bersyukur padanya. Karena ialah yang mengubah hidupmu.
Saat bertemu orang yang pernah kau cintai, Ingatlah dengan tersenyum untuk berterima-kasih. Karena dialah orang yang membuatmu lebih mengerti tentang kasih.
Saat bertemu orang yang pernah kau benci, Sapalah dengan tersenyum. Karena ia membuatmu semakin teguh/kuat.
Saat bertemu orang yang pernah mengkhianatimu, Baik-baiklah berbincanglah dengannya. Karena jika bukan karena dia, hari ini engkau tak memahami dunia ini.
Saat bertemu orang yang pernah diam-diam kau cintai, Berkatilah dia. Karena saat kau mencintainya, bukankah berharap ia bahagia?
Saat bertemu orang yang tergesa-gesa meninggalkanmu, Berterima-kasihlah bahwa ia pernah ada dalam hidupmu. Karena ia adalah bagian dari nostalgiamu.
Saat bertemu orang yang pernah salah-paham padamu, Gunakan saat tersebut untuk menjelaskannya. Karena engkau mungkin hanya punya satu kesempatan itu saja untuk menjelaskan.
Saat bertemu orang yang saat ini menemanimu seumur hidup, Berterima-kasihlah sepenuhnya bahwa ia mencintaimu. Karena saat ini kalian mendapatkan kebahagiaan dan cinta sejati.
Saat membaca artikel ini…..
renungkanlah…. satu saat semua yang kita miliki harus dilepaskan, gengsi, harga diri, kehormatan,takhta, harta.
"Sedapat dapatnya kalau semua itu bergantung pada pilihan kita, hiduplah damai dengan semua orang, saling mengasihi, dan berusahalah tuk trs membahagiakan mrk"
Selamat pagi. Have a blessing day.